Paris Jackson: What's It Like On The Inside?

Paris-Michael Katherine Jackson, daughter of the legendary King of Pop Michael Jackson had her first interview with Rolling Stone Magazine. This is the first and most in-depth look into the life of the legends daughter, or any of his children for that matter and, there was no topic untouched. The tone of the rare and unusual interview for the typically private family was set with the first location being , The Museum of Death on Hollywood Boulevard.

Paris shared the intimate details of her childhood, her relationship with her father, her own personal battle with depression and addiction, and coping with the death of “the best father you could ever imagine.” Prince Michael Jackson, Paris’ older brother describes her as a person who reminds him of their father in many ways. He states, "in all of her strengths, and almost all of her weaknesses as well. She's very passionate. She is very emotional to the point where she can let emotion cloud her judgment."

The now 18-year-old daughter of the music Iicon lost her father at the age of 11 and things seemed to spiral out of control as the once sheltered child was shoved into the brutal eye of the media. Paris describes one of her suicide attempt at age 15 as “self-hatred," and said, "low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn't do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore" is what caused her to slit her wrists and take 20 Motrin pills. She also shares that she had been self-harming and cutting herself but managed to conceal it from her family.

Trying to grow up as a “normal teenager”, the feeling of being an outcast at her private school and the horrible backlash of the media, landed Paris in the hospital on her third-strike, and doctor’s insisted she go into a residential therapy program.

"I was crazy. I was actually crazy. I was going through a lot, like, teen angst. And I was also dealing with my depression and my anxiety without any help," is how she described her state of mind. She spent her sophomore and half of her junior year of high school in a therapeutic school in Utah and said that it was great for her adding that she’s a “completely different person.”

Paris also shared a trauma, that she’d never shared with the public, the sexual assault she endured at 14-years-old at the hands of a “complete stranger,” she shared, “it was really hard for me, and, at the time, I didn't tell anybody."

On coping with her father’s death, Paris said "They always say, 'Time heals,'" but she believes “it really doesn't. You just get used to it. I live life with the mentality of 'OK, I lost the only thing that has ever been important to me.' So going forward, anything bad that happens can't be nearly as bad as what happened before. So I can handle it.” An 11-year-old Paris shocked us all when she stopped forward at her father’s televised memorial service and said, "Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine, and I just wanted to say I love him so much." Her older brother Prince said that in that moment she showed she had, "more strength than any of us." Ms. Jackson stands by her belief that her father was murdered by Dr. Conrad Murray, who was convicted of involuntary manslaughter in the death of his then patient, Michael Jackson. When asked why she is convinced it was murder, she responded by saying, "Because it's obvious. All arrows point to that. It sounds like a total conspiracy theory and it sounds like bullshit, but all real fans and everybody in the family knows it. It was a setup. It was bullshit." She also believes that her father was innocent of the multiple molestation charges brought against him in 2005 and believes that if she and Prince could go door to door they could change the World’s perception of their beloved father.

As far as the future is concerned, Paris is now sober and happier than she’s ever been. She moved out of her grandmaother, Katherine’s home shortly after her 18th birthday and moved into the former Jackson Estate, that was built by Joe Jackson in 1971. After charming producer-director Lee Daniels, she may be coming to our television in a role on Fox’s show Star. Paris is “a model, an actress, a work in progress.”

If you have not read the intimate interview with Rolling Stone Magazine, I suggest that you find a quiet moment in your day to give it a read. The events shared in the lines of this article is a step away from the typical “rich kid” sob story, that asks us to feel sorry for those that we cannot relate to. Instead Paris Jackson strips down and shows us the scars behind the tattoos, the human heart behind the celebrity persona and the damage caused by 21st century media.